After a six week break from chemo because of my high risk with corona, I’ve incredibly been restarted again.
I had been told it would be a 12 week break and although I had initially dealt with it pretty well after a couple of weeks my anxiety was keeping me awake at night.
What’s that cough? Why am I breathless? Corona or cancer? You literally question everything when you’re living with incurable cancer.
But chemo is our security blanket, so to have it whipped from under us is terrifying. Thank god my incredible oncologist got me started on it sooner than was planned.
I was absolutely delighted. It’s strange how you come to love things that make you tired and achy and sometimes poorly, because ultimately, it’s saving your life.
Now I’m waiting for my three month scan – ‘scanxiety’ is always one of the hardest part of living with cancer but this one is going to be awful.
I’m currently breathless allll the time, it’s not really anything new – it could be damage from radiotherapy as my left lung was at risk of being affected, it could be all the meds that I’m on but I’m almost certain it has nothing to do with all the wine and chocolate I’ve been consuming throughout lockdown.
All I know is that if my next scan comes back clear, there will be some flippin serious screaming going on in our house.
I have managed to bag myself some full spectrum CBD oil from the Tonic Tribe, which is definitely taking the edge off. Here’s the link if anybody wants to give it a try.
Aside from cancer, life goes on. Homeschooling, work, cooking, family time, exercise – chill time and wine are what our days consist of.
Although I have had to put the wine down midweek as it was becoming a liiiiitle bit too normal. I’m saving red wine for weekends from now on.
I’ve also struggled to exercise because we’ve been in complete lockdown. I’ve only been leaving the house to have blood tests.
I’ve decided that I’m going to invest in a Fitbit and challenge myself to do at least 5,000 steps a day in the garden.
Excercise and a healthy diet can be crucial in combatting cancer and I’ve lost my way – big time so I need to get back in the zone. Any tips are very much welcome.
Home schooling is….a challenge. It must be so hard for our little babes.
Massive changes, parents turned teachers, no interaction with their friends. Little changes are mammoth to children and even though it’s bloody stressful to try and get them to focus, we have to remind ourselves that everything is a bit scary in their little world right now.
We were losing it with each other yesterday and it all became a bit heated. Ivy told us she wanted to be adopted. And that we were the worst mummy and daddy ever.
Naturally we want to tell them off and reprimand them but we told her that we knew she was just feeling a bit fed up and we knew that she didn’t mean those hurtful words.
She came back after a few minutes with telling us she needed a snug.
I have been so busy with my www.fightypants.com orders, especially the ‘Rainbow Child’ pin. I am so delighted that so many people will have these when they grow up to remember this absolutely mental time in our lives.
I’ve been gifted lots of products throughout my the year to help with the effects of cancer or just to give me a little boost.
So I thought I would start telling you all about my favourites with a little section featuring my product of the week.
This week, I am loving Elemis’s superfood hydration juice. It’s honestly a magic potion – makes my skin glow and happy. It looks and feels so hydrated all day long. I adore it.